Wednesday, August 31, 2005

I miss Wednesdays when I didn't have homework. Those were the good old days. *sighs*
The rule at my high school was that no teacher could assign homework for Wednesday nights. This was due to the fact that I went to a private Christian school, and most youth groups met that night.
But now, in college, there is no such rule. And Wednesdays seem to be the days I have the most homework. For instance, I have a three page journal to write, a Lab paper on the behavior of Sarcophaga bullata, a revision of my English paper, study for various quizzes, keep up on reading and taking notes. All for just one night! BAH! It is too much! I must stop writing and get to work. On the other hand, my Eng. Prof. said we could use any journal we already had to fill his journal requirement. Print, print, print.... I have lots of reading to do, before my Mythology recitation. We are reading the Odyssey. It is really, long poetry.... I hate poetry.
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Tuesday, August 30, 2005

The bell tower on campus is really cool! Its really loud when you're right next to it though.

I lost a picture of Orly today *sigh*.

I now have a tv in my room. I don't think I'll ever use it though. We'll see. I'm more of a computer person than a tv person. Not that I know what I'm doing with either of them!

See the picture of the pictures that are on my desk. Also, the tv picture is crooked, but I'll fix it later. I have a headache.

Food at my dorm is yucky. Another dorm has good food though. Much better. Yesterday, my cafeteria had fake bacon. Yes, bacon made from veggies and tofu. It looked very "ungood." The eggs also look "ungood." They come from a box, I think. I usually have cereal because it's safe. Yes, college has its down sides.

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Crazy Indian people should not teach Biology labs. I couldn't understand a word of said individual. She was moody too. And my partner had a foul mouth. It was a miserable three hours. Yes, you read correctly, THREE BLOODY HOURS!! I dropped her faster than barbed wire. I am now in a lab with an American who speaks English fluently. Not that I'm racist or anything, my grades are very important to me. If I can't understand my teacher, I'm not going to do well in the class, am I? So, I got up this morning to study for a big test in the above mentioned class. It was supposed to be really hard. I studied really hard and I think I did a really good job. Then the prof. told us to get ten maggots out of a jar so we could measure how they reacted to different wave lengths. Basically, they raced each other towards or away from certain types of light. Interesting, but disgusting!

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Thursday, August 25, 2005

I had a moment today. I was walking out of a class as the the Bell tower began ringing. I had to pass pretty close to it, so my whole head was filled with the music. As I was passing it, I noticed a bottle of perfume had broken on the ground. I took a few more steps and I was enveloped by the cologne. For a brief five seconds or so, a happy smell and floating music made me forget that I had a mountain of homework and other such problems to worry about. It was the highlight of my day. I felt very poetic in that moment.

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I had the weirdest dream last night...
I was at a movie with Ben and he had his head in my lap. Kellie, Vickie, and I decided to take a bathroom break. We ended up up going down a bunch of stairs that were all white. Finally we reached the last flight and it was full of dark green water. (Think the scene in Titanic where the water is flooding the ship.) So we headed over to another floor and, for some reason I tried flushing a toilet. All of a sudden water started spraying from everywhere. The whole building began to flood now. We raced up and around the staircase to the top floor. As we burst out into the night there was the sounds of a battle going on around us. Apparently the whole building was underground, cause now we were at ground level. There were little goblin or gremlins or some little monster running around shooting all the people. At that moment the building behind us blew up and I was the only one who had survived. Something flew across the moon. I looked up and saw what appeared to be an angel, but at a closer look turned out to be Travis, son of Vickie and also a good friend. He had white, feathery winds that pulsed through the air and he was swooping around drawing the fire of the gremlins from the people who were outside.
A gremlin charged at me and I looked behind me for a way to escape. My vision was blocked by two beautiful wings. I had a pair myself. I struggled to move them. Slowly they beat downwards. I didn't go anywhere. The gremlin was taking aim. I started running off to the side, flapping my wings as I went. Finally, I lifted off and climbed towards the heavens. I was airborne! But suddenly I was falling! I had lost controll of my wings, and was plumeting back to earth. For a split second I saw a blur of white and then I was caught by Travis. However, his wings were only made to support one person, not two. "Help me!" he cried struggling vainly to stay aloft. I looked at the ground. I didn't have the strength to fly; I was scared. Then slowly I extended my wings. Tentativley I flapped them up and down. Our descent slowed. I held on more tightly to Travis and tried again. Then up we flew, our wings beating together, taking us away from the battle...
So if anyone can explain such a dream feel free to post!

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I know that no one understands why I miss you. It's my choice if and how I want to remember you, so why can't they just stop trying to maim my memory of you? They didn't know you as I did, and I didn't know you as they did. Perhaps that was silly of me, to trust you so completely. I just wish I knew what happened to drive us apart, and I want you to know that I want you to be happy. I don't call down curses on you like I thought about doing to the others. Just so you know, I still listen to our song and it makes me cry like I'm doing right now. I remember the good times and put the bad ones to rest. I know that if I ever see you again it won't be the same. You'll probably have grown up and I'll be smarter about who I give my heart to.

Come what may....

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Sometimes it sucks when the people you think you can count on aren't there. You think they're the ones who'll be there for you when you're uprooted and alienated. But what happens if they're not? You flounder and cast about for something to kept you up. And while you're trying to hang on, you want to be mad at them and want them to be at fault. But being their friend makes you realize that you aren't mad at them, but are hurt by them. You feel like you should have the right to their time and attention, but deep inside you feel guilty for needing it. And that makes you angry with yourself for being selfish. And there is no way out of the cycle but to forgive and be forgiven.

I don't believe there is ever only one person at fault, but whether its you or me or us both will you forgive me?

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Wednesday, August 24, 2005

I spent pretty much the entire day sitting at my desk. I had so much homework! Funny thing is I''m still not done, but am writing this instead. I went to dinner with Sarah. That was the highlight of my day.
Both of my knees were giving me pains while I walked to and from class. It has me worried.
I discovered something new about myself today: I used to take showers because it was socially acceptable, but now I find myself taking showers to relieve the boredom of homework. Strange, eh?

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I met a few more professors. I have a really late, really long English class. I presupposed that I would hate it. Its in the cold, dim basement of the hall, and once again I wasn't sure if I was in the right class. When the Prof showed up, he introduced himself and ranted about the University giving him a night class. He made a couple of jokes and I started to relax.
My mom told me a bunch of stories about her professors here. How they were all liberal, and secular and crap. I've been worried about all the horror stories I heard as well. Thankfully, my professors are all nice, so far. Plus, this Eng teacher is a Christian! So awesome. And he's not afraid to share his beliefs with the class. My History teacher is an expert at judeo-christian stuff and has thoroughly studied the Hebrews and Biblical principles. That doesn't mean he's a Christian, but it seems reassurring.

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Monday, August 22, 2005

I got back to my dorm around one in the morning last,uh, morning, I guess. Yay for no curfew! It's great cause I didn't feel guilty about breaking my parents' rules.
The reason I was out so late was because me and a group of friends went out country dancing at the Plamor. It was awesome! I'd never been dancing before so it was completely enthralling. I learned a new line dance, improved my electric slide, and relearned the pretzel.
The first thing Katt and I did was join the Electric slide. Right after that a guy asked me to dance. When I said I didn't know how, he said he'd teach me. So I didn't really learn anything, but it was fun!
Jessica and I did our little swing, lift, thingy a couple of times. There were several couples who did it much better.
Eventually, Jessica got Jay to dance and Nick taught me some new stuff. All in all, it was awkward, but still fun.
I was really worried about my classes today because I was out so late, but the Professors were nice and didn't give any homework other than reading. My history class sounds interesting and my roommate and I are in it together. Mythology was awesome! The instructor came in on roller skates and played the "I'm your Venus, I'm your fire, your desire..." song on a record player. Then he was goofy the whole rest of the class. He's an old guy and has a strange accent. Biology was hard to stay awake for cause I didn't get enough sleep. I worried about the Lab. I have to do another disection. Rats this time, though, not pigs or frogs.

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Saturday, August 20, 2005

Nother day at college... I walked around all day trying to find where my classes meet. It was so hot!! My shirt was soaked through and now I'm freezing in my dorm.

Turns out my roomie stayed away all night. I saw her for about five minutes today. She's always with her mom and a sibling. Awkward...But it is the weekend and her last one with her family at that, so... I guess I have all year to meet her.

Speaking of meeting people, my RA just dropped by. Katie Something or other. She talks too much.
I also met Sarah's friends. Evan, Andrew, and a few others. I had a lot of fun after the marching band thing. The band was boring, and the cheerleaders were disappointing. *sigh* We went "exploring" after the exhibition. Got very lost and muddy. Then there was this party at the Rec where we got Valentinos pizza and free t-shirts and frizbees. We didn't stay long because this huge wave of people came and it got really crowded. So we headed over to the Honors dorms and watched LOTR on tv. It was fun and pretty soon there were like 10 people crammed into the room and telling jokes. I haven't laughed so hard in a long time!

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God never ceases to amaze me.
Last night I was feeling pretty sorry for myself, mainly due to the fact that my roommate and I have yet to properly meet. She didn't stay the night last night so I was on my own. I haven't met anyone in my dorm either. Since my dorm is considered the"party dorm" that might not be such a bad thing, but it's still depressing. Now for the amazing part. I met some people that fit my type a little more. Weird thing is, they're in the Honors dorm. Every last one of them. I owe all that to God and one person. Sarah, who was my closest friend for most of my life, is in the Honors program and has been showing me around. She 's been great!!

College is so much different than high school! Most people, the ones that matter, don't judge you at first glance. Of course, most of them are at least sophomores. Like this one guy, Evan. He totally has the Christian college guy thing down. He reminds me of a mix between Nathaniel and Josh, both guys from my high school. Then theres James. Just met him tonight, but he's pretty cool. Although, stereotypically, I wouldn't guess he'd be in the Honors dorm. There's Marc too. He's got a lot of funny stories and energy. The quietest of the bunch is Andrew, can't read him very well. Sarah has this one friend from high school that I don't like so much. She hangs around quite often. She ignores Sarah when she's with her boyfriend, and she is very prissy and girly.

Tonight there was some concert at the Union. Sarah and I went for a while, but got bored and were about to leave when we ran into some of the above listed people. We tosses around a foam football for a while and got eaten by mosquitos and got all sweaty. Then we headed over to the Honors Dorms(henceforth shall be HD) and plopped in Evan's room. We started watching the Simpsons. Weirdest thing: I have never liked that program, but it was actually funny tonight. Then, we started tossing a beach ball around, trying to keep it from hitting the floor. It was so simple, but so entertaining. Then Marc tried to stand on his hands and walk down the hall!

Ah, life is good!

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Friday, August 19, 2005

Ha Ha! I am officially a college student! I just moved into my dorm room yesterday. I was so worried about my roomie, but I just met her less than 15 minutes ago. She's so nice-so far. Those of you who know me and my life more closely will understand what I mean when I say she reminds me of a certain Katie Ann Kappleman.

It's raining out and I'm spending this evening outside. I hate rain; it's depressing. I will get to see the UNL marching band perform! And maybe catch a glimpse of the cheerleaders. Thankfully, I know one person on campus-Sarah. She and I and some kid Evan are going together. Maybe my roommate, Jordan, would like to join us. While I'm happy that I have one person on my college contact list, there is only one. So dispiriting. I feel a bit lonely on this ginormous campus.

Either that boom was thunder or someone on the floor above me fell off their bunk bed.

Randomness.....

I really hope I'll start to feel at home here, and I hope my non-college friends don't forget about me! I've lived in this town all my life but there is still so much I don't know about it! Like, where all my classes are!

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